It was chilly that evening. I sat there on the Deli patio, all hunkered down with my trench coat wrapped tightly around me. I nursed a bottle of Anchor Steam and shoved a cheeseburger down my throat. Honest tears were running down my face, as I was surrounded by friends. We were talking about my life and its direction or lack of it.
My mind has always raced with the whimsy and the possibilities and the what-ifs, but I am perpetually fearful of making the change, so until then I will always wonder if this is enough.
Sometimes it's too comfortable. Sometimes I think a baby or Jesus will make it all better. Sometimes I just want a real career.
I write something like this at least once a year.
I will be 29-years-old later this month.
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5 comments:
As someone who hit 39 a couple of weeks ago, 29 is just the beginning. Your whole life can change DRASTICALLY more than once in the next ten years. Best to take the happiness as it comes to you, and use the sadness to improve yourself.
Leslie, pretty much every 4 months I have a crashing realization that my job is completely unfulfilling and depressing but it's a hole that I've dug myself into that I can't escape. And I really don't know WHAT I want to do! And boy is that frustrating. So you know, I just wanted to say: I hear ya, lady. Loud and clear.
you know who must've been the most fulfilled person ever? mary, mother of god. I mean, she had the BABY JESUS, for crying out loud.
hang in there, you. like a kitten.
One of my favorite William Blake quotes is "Without contraries (there) is no progression."
Basically, I think he's saying that we need obstacles in our lives to make us stronger. It's like how when you're lifting weights, the muscle actually tears, but it grows back stronger in the broken places.
I personally believe that's God's plan, but I think you can take it from a non-religious perspective as well.
That said, know that you have a lot of friends and people who care for you.
I love y'all.
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